living just to be sane.

Don't you hate it when you feel something but you are to scared to really get involved because if you do, you might loose it in an instant? yeah, me too. I am scared of having one good day and then the next day it goes back to the normal, everyday, horrible high school life. It's almost like I believe in "luck" but I sure don't. I sometimes think that I cant have a whole week of good days because that's not how it works. I have to have a couple bad days that ruin it all. This past week something has happened and I am try to hold on to it for as long as possible without letting go and hoping for the best.

its been a while.

I can explain! I got on tumblr. But as I was doing my annual thinking in the shower, I realized how much I needed to write/type out things. I dont really do that on tumblr. Though, I should. Anyway, lately I have been pretty happy. But I don't know what has been up with me for the past week or so. I turned 16 last tuesday and I got a text from hewhoshallmustnotbenamed. (people that are close to me know who this undercover voldemort is) I wasnnt expecting much really. We talk off and on and it usually ends with me saying something he doesnt like. And this is why he hates me now. I wish he knew how much it hurts to talak to him knowing he has moved on and I apparently have not. I mean my god, I can't just stop the feelings I had for you in a matter of seconds now can I? Its eating me up and all I want to do is tell you. I hope you read this eventually. But you probably won't. Just know nothing has changed. For you, maybe. Me however, not so much..

free time= blog time

i had one of th best days ever in a while,

true fact

they're real.

clever