living just to be sane.

Don't you hate it when you feel something but you are to scared to really get involved because if you do, you might loose it in an instant? yeah, me too. I am scared of having one good day and then the next day it goes back to the normal, everyday, horrible high school life. It's almost like I believe in "luck" but I sure don't. I sometimes think that I cant have a whole week of good days because that's not how it works. I have to have a couple bad days that ruin it all. This past week something has happened and I am try to hold on to it for as long as possible without letting go and hoping for the best.

its been a while.

I can explain! I got on tumblr. But as I was doing my annual thinking in the shower, I realized how much I needed to write/type out things. I dont really do that on tumblr. Though, I should. Anyway, lately I have been pretty happy. But I don't know what has been up with me for the past week or so. I turned 16 last tuesday and I got a text from hewhoshallmustnotbenamed. (people that are close to me know who this undercover voldemort is) I wasnnt expecting much really. We talk off and on and it usually ends with me saying something he doesnt like. And this is why he hates me now. I wish he knew how much it hurts to talak to him knowing he has moved on and I apparently have not. I mean my god, I can't just stop the feelings I had for you in a matter of seconds now can I? Its eating me up and all I want to do is tell you. I hope you read this eventually. But you probably won't. Just know nothing has changed. For you, maybe. Me however, not so much..

free time= blog time

i had one of th best days ever in a while,

true fact

they're real.

clever

id seriously kill someone.

i love things like this

So here it goes;

have you ever just sat down and thought? Thought about life, love, relationships, blessings, etc? Trust me my friend, do it. It really opens those pretty little eyes of yours. And truth is, we want to see them. And that smile.

Anyways.

I realized I am so blessed. Lately all I can thnk about is "how sucky my life is..." blah blah. Coinsidentally, no one wants to here it, Hannah! Yeah, I talk to myself like that. poo. But looking at the big picture, if you compare your life with someone in, oh i dont know.. Africa, maybe your POV would change? just a little?

Fact is: You can't always win.

things like this, make me smile.

oh, you.

i love Taylor Swift and her mellow-dramatic song lyrics.

July 15 thats my day!

i want somone like this.

im just a thinker but,

the happiest people dont have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything.

my secret. shh

i'll show you "just wanna have fun and play around"..

- oh, my love of wizards in waverly place.

makes you think, right?

Bahahahahhahaha :D

i like to have chaos in my life.

correction: i love it.

goodness

mermaids are the most beautiful creatures in the world, followed by beluga whales.

i hope my kid looks like this

i like bracelets

sometimes i really wish you would take a walk in my shoes and see how this makes me feel.

is that too much to ask for? perspective people!

this made me laugh.. out loud.

i miss my pockets. :(

YES

UP

to me, true beauty is prettier..

than this.

i know that coveting is a sin.. but this. I do.

buzz is the man.

my all time favorite.

i wanna be her.

my summer

Summmerrrrrr.
Beautiful word. I have been out since last Wednesday. And I have not slept in once. I have to much things going on. Here is my schedule:
This week & monday-thursday of next week Drivers Ed.
June 12-18- University of Georgia Journalism camp.
June 20-28- New York City, Pennselvaynia, Boston, Baltimore.
July 2-9- beach
July 12- 16th birthday!
July 12- start of school- Softball!
July 30- License

                                                     
                           I have nothing to do this summer.

glitter makes me happy.

So.
For the last couple of days I've been in a bad mood. I know why, just don't know when it will end, really. But tonight i decided to paint my nails. And they look awesome. Glitter on finger nails!? Absurd! Its like  "make you happy in one second" finger nail polish. sweet addiction. Then I started thinking. I want color in my hair. Just a purple streak. I won't bust out in some rainbow hair, dreads, and tattos. Just saying.
All for now.

complain

You know what gets on my nerves? This:

About a day or two in a relationship girls post on any social networking site about how much they are in loooveee with some new guy. Even if she had never heard of them until a week before. Sorda pathetic.

 And, when guys do the same thing. Even though a week before he was messing with some other girl. That is just as pathetic.

Example:
"i love my boobear soooo much <3 he makes me soooo happy :) i trust him with everything!!! wewll be together forever and a day <3 <3 <3"

Girl, pleeease. The next day you will be whining about how he "used you and you deserve way more"
whatever.
Love is hard and complcated to define. But for one thing, its not that. That word gets thrown around more than anything. I would understand 4 or 5 years into a relationship/ Not 4 or 5 days. Think about it. Well, until next time :)

the touchy subject

Why is love so hard to explain, but so easy to fall into?
Why is love easy to get caught up in, and forget the rest?
Why is "love" the word, get used so much, but not a lot of people even mean it?
Why is love seem like the coolest thing ever, when it can be but it also can not be?
Why is love make it seem that EVERYONE falls in love?
Why is love taunting me for the past month or so?
Why is love a four letter word, but a many words to define it?
just a thought, or two.

really its7.

entertainment

So, it just so happens I am in buisness right now. Well, actually High School 101 but I wanted to get on a computer.
Science EOCT: living hell. I didnt know a single thing.. oh well. I was already in a bad mood. Thanks to the Georgia Board of Education I'm in an even worse mood. But, it made me think. And I really need to think. Well not much to say today. Maybe later. But I say that a lot. love.



OH. summer in 11 days.

impressions, youve made impressions- but they are going nowhere.

Long time, no talk. Many things have happened in the past two weeks. May I inform you?
1. I got excepted into the journalism camp at UGA.
2. i watched glee.
3. I enjoyed glee.
4. I learned I'm my worse enemy.
5. I realized how great my friends are.
6. How blessed I really am.
7. I might have a slim chance of passing freshman year.
8. 19 days till summer.. i believe.
9. My cousin is getting married.
&
10. Today, i am finally in a good mood. Haven't really been in one for the past... 3 weeks.

that's it. Oh, and if you happen to know where I can get a glee shirt so I can put my biggest insecurity on it, it would be much appreciated. Relay For Life tomorrow. Love this night. i love you

look at the glass half full, instead of half empty.

a broken heart is bad. But, a broken heart with no one there to comfort you is even worse. The events of this weekend were awesome, minus one. Im not mad. Upset maybe, but not mad or angry. Life goes on and so shall I. Things happen that might hurt really bad, but hey. I'll live :) Just look at the glass half full. Be optimistic. I am thankful to have 2 of my closest fried with me during this. I would be 100 times worse if they werent. So therefore, i love you emily and taylor. :)

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.

my title of this is the equivalent of my boredom. Oh, and this video. :) Press 3 repeatidly. Turns a frown, upside down, for real.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPx266rGw3E

capture it, remeber it.

Can i be her for one day, pretty please?

                                                Heaven on Earth. 
  
                                 Pack me a bag, and ill be there.

                            why do nuns not wear bras?

                           -God supports everything.

national no shoes & mother is cussing day!

If you dont know me, you dont know my obsession for TOMS! I love them! So tomorrow, is national no shoes day! And, TOMS kinda started it. I did it last year in Washington DC. I had cuts and bruises. It hurt very badly. But hey, good cause :). So im excited about it tomorrow! The funniest thing just happened. I put my facebook status as "not wearing any shoes tomorrow :D" Then... my lovely mother comment on it with "to bad you s*** didnt come in!" .................. i freaked and asked her why she said that. She meant to put shirt... only my mother. haha! She was reffering to the shirt I bought to wear tomorrow! :) Well, until we speak again!
-Hannah

best. day. ever.

Guess who is going to the beach today? ME! I'm stoked. Why? Because I havent been since august. I am so thankful for having family in florida. Sadly, I have to leave tomorrow. Sad. But today I will not focus on this. I will have fun! Beaches are my absolute favoriteeeeee places to go. Minus the over load of sand, and getting stung by jelly fishes. (which always seems to happen!) And, If you are wondering "Why does she have a random picture at the top?" Well, that is my adorable cousin. Since I did not have a recent picture at the beach I thought I should put one relating to it! Well until next time.

- Hannah :)

patience is key.

Spring. Break.
Two words you look forward to every school year. (Other than summer, of course.) No, I am not going to the beach for spring break. But thats ok! Because I have other plans that are just as good! But there is a downer to all this. Monroe county is a whole week after all macon schools I've heard. Really!? And ones who know me good enough know how much of a bummer that is! So this upcoming week will be dreadful to say at the least. But I am with my super cool family in Tampa Florida at the momento and I am missing school monday! So I guess I should not be complaining. Like always. Well until we talk again.
-Hannah. :)

l o v e

I have realized today I am in love with poetry. I have always liked it, but now.. i love it. So, we had to do some reasearch of American Poets in Honors Lit today & I found Shel Silverstein. My playwrite guru. ;) I recited a poem by him in a play once, well two or three of them actually. I only really remember 2. "Sick" & "The Giving Tree" He is amazing.

If The World Was Crazy
If the world was crazy, you know what I'd eat?

A big slice of soup and a whole quart of meat,

A lemonade sandwich, and then I might try

Some roasted ice cream or a bicycle pie,

A nice notebook salad, an underwear roast,

An omelet of hats and some crisp cardboard toast,

A thick malted milk made from pencils and daisies,

And that's what I'd eat if the world was crazy.

If the world was crazy, you know what I'd wear?

A chocolate suit and a tie of eclair,

Some marshmallow earmuffs, some licorice shoes,

And I'd read a paper of peppermint news.

I'd call the boys "Suzy" and I'd call the girls "Harry,"

I'd talk through my ears, and I always would carry

A paper umbrella for when it grew hazy

To keep in the rain, if the world was crazy.

If the world was crazy, you know what I'd do?

I'd walk on the ocean and swim in my shoe,

I'd fly through the ground and I'd skip through the air,

I'd run down the bathtub and bathe on the stair.

When I met somebody I'd say, "G'bye, Joe,"

And when I was leaving--then I'd say "Hello."

And the greatest of men would be silly and lazy

So I would be king...if the world was crazy.

-shel silverstein

Until next time,

Hannah :)

week in review.

Monday: If you ask me, it was pretty good! Nerd night at youngelife was awesome.
Tuesday: Three words: I.can't.remember. I just wore a dress to school. WOW. ha, well a skirt. Still counts! It just rained, and rained, and rained.
Wednesday: Best day out of the week. Why you ask? Well first, I got excepted into a journalism camp at UGA! I'm stoked! I cannot wait. I am going into photojournalism SO, yeah. :) Secondly, I shamed out after school. Jake wanted me to go to the Track meet, so I said "Sure!" Got to tattnall, and yeah.. NO ONE WAS THERE! I felt like a major idiot. So then I heard it was at MDS. So there I went! Yeah, those things usually don't happen to other people..except me!
Thursday: Saint Patricks Day! (yes, I'm getting creative with my green color, snazzy!) I wore green. I honestly did not want to be pinched! No fun. We had story time in 4th period. Me & Sydney found a new favorite song! "Friday" THAT WAS VERY SARCASTIC. Whoever Rebbecca Black is just learned her days of the week. Bahhhhh! crazy.
Well, tomorrows FRIDAY! *Friday, its Friday, yesterday was Thursday!* whoa. Cherry Blossom this weekend & first game Saturday! I'm thinking it'll be a good one :)
Until we meet again,
                               -Hannah

twelve.

Every one thinks it's quite ridiculous how many bracelets I have & wear. Right now, I'm wearing 12. Left hand. I rotate them every week. Left, right, left, right. And now I have a liking for rings. Who knew? I like things on my hands and arms. But with each bracelet, comes a story.
1. my 1-1-1- it means pray for one person,one day, for one minute.
2. my Belize- my mission trip to Belize city in 2009.
3. monkey silly band- it just glows in the dark, that's cool enough for it to be on my arm.
4, 5, & 6- My first 3 bracelets, (when I really got into them)
7. my "hope"- I found this a couple months ago from a hair band, but it was too cool to go without anyone seeing it, so on my arm it went,
8. my "TOMS"- I am obsessed with TOMS. I have had them since last May maybe June. So this bracelet makes me think of my shoes even when I am not wearing them.
9. my Emily Fletcher- she had it in a bag with all her string she used to make bracelets a couple of years back, and I finished it. Yeah, you can tell her part from mine.
10 & 11- My "Dinging" ones- They ring whenever I walk :) Makes me smile.
12. Last, but not least, my weave bracelet. It is from Jake on Valentines day. :) According to Mrs.Susannah its me, him & God. a threesome. Lovely explanation, right? haha.

okay. Well those are my babies. :) and I am not even wearing some of them.

THE bestfriend.

Thats taylor. The wierdo in the tye dye shirt that looks like a complete idiot. But who am i to talk? i'm right there with her with some akward 6th grade "poke your lips out like your kissing, cause were in middle school" face. Taylor is otherwise known as my bestfriend, my sister, other half.. you know the drill. This past month has not been the best month between us. But hey, last night was beast. Why? because we had a church date & beasted it up in unscrabbling words. yezzirr. I cant tell you one time where she has let me down. She will always be there no matter what. You can't top this chick.

introducing.

Hannah-- is me. Im not perfect. I judge a lot. I can be a hypocrite. I can lie. I can cheat. I can most deffintly be someone im not. I can doubt in something just because of one thing. But one thing i KNOW is that I am Loved. By one of the most powerful things out there. Minus everything i have done wrong. And, i think its pretty dang cool that the same person that made justin bieber, made me. Wierd concept but that is cool for me. I can do the worst thing ever, & still be forgiven. crazy right? right. It blows my mind.

smile on my face.

I have the BEST friends in the wholllllllllle world. like legit. They are the ones I turn to. This past year I have really become to notice who is there, and who is not. Dont get me wrong, i have other friends. But none like these people. Hannah Jones, Sydney Walker(not pictured), Leah Haygood(not pictured), Emily Fletcher, Taylor Kite, Megan Sheppard, Ripken Gorman and of course, Jake Allen. I dont know where I would be without these people. I have learned to trust each and everyone of them no matter what. Over the next 3 years of high school, i know these people will stick around NO matter what. i love y'all!

wishes times 15

i wish i lived somewhere else.
i wish i could marry Josh Duhamel.
i wish i could go to a school i want to be at.
i wish i didnt have braces.
i wish people didnt judge as much as they do.
i wish i havent done things ive done.
i wish i could take back my past.
i wish i could pause a time where i'm happy, and replay it over, and over again.
i wish i wasnt all talk.
i wish people would actually care.
i wish i wasnt so open about somethings.
i wish i was prettier.
i wish i didnt get attached to things like i do.
i wish i didnt spend as much time doing nothing, when i could be doing something.

                                               i wish i didnt wish as much as i do.

what my hears want.

lately, i have become even more obsessed with music. I have always had a liking for it, but now its like i cant stand not to have a song stuck in my head. (a good one of course) Today, E.T. by katy perry got to be the lucky one. yesterday, was I Want It That Way by the Backstreet Boys. & that is ok with me! but i usually find myself singing it, thats not always good for other people. i couldnt sing you anything decent to save my life.I wish i could sing though. just to burst out in song and actually sound like you know what your doing would be awesome. Since my life is high school musical.. i guess it could happen! If you know me good enough.. you know i am in love with Justin Bieber. and i am. but his songs all sound the same now. no offense.. i mean that is a good thing because his songs are great. But they all say baby a bizillion times. daaaawww. what ever floats his boat. thats all for nowww!

the nothingness post.

ok. i take my last facebook status back. i HATE getting my eyes dialated. it sucks. majorly. i couldnt see a thing. and last time i checked, you should probably WANT to see things. anyways, done whinning for the day. valentines day was yesterday. and the first time in years i have NOT had a single awareness day! yayyy! :) i had a great day yesterday. minus the locked in the bathroom and getting soaking wet by the toilet.. but hey. stuff happens. i dont know the point of this blog. One thing i know is how happy i am that i remembered my password! so thats why i havemt posted in a while.. not like anyone missed anything. but now it will be stuck in my head and i shall NOT forrget it. :)